who i was basically in love with/i still hated you half the time from 4th-12th grade/also the boy i lost my virginity to/oh that was exactly a year and 4 days ago/yes i lost my virginity on 11-11-11/okay anyways
okay, dear you.
why did you just come out of nowhere wanting to talk all the time and wanting me to come visit you all the time now that
a) we graduated
i was saying how i was sleepy and tired from work and he was like, saying he was going to carry me up the stairs and w/e and then ‘snuggle’ me to sleep and all this shit
and how ‘oh now i really want to cuddle with you’
and i was just like oh lol yeah cuddle would be nice
whatever whatever right?
”right? oh girl, you gotta get down here”
DO NOT EVEN TRY AND START
BECAUSE MY PISCES HEART CANNOT HANDLE THIS BULLSHIT THAT YOU ARE SAYING
GET OUT RIGHT NOW
LIKE JOJO SAID, ITS THE END OF YOU AND ME
ITS TOO LATE AND I CANT WAIT FOR YOU TO BE GONE
So I went for like the last 2 hours-ish. I saw sooooo many people I knew! Oh my god. Even people who like hated me in high school ran up and hugged me like we were just the best of friends. Like even people I hadn’t seen since freshman year. It’s weird that people remember me like that. Oh and of course guess who I see there… Kayla. Waaaah she was sooo cute! ^ u^ And like okay I’m walking around with my sister and her girlfriend. And then we were walking away from the stage towards like he food stands and stuff because her gf wanted to smoke. Then I saw Kayla. (Well I was kinda far away and it was dark and I have bad vision already plus I could only see her profile and at first I’m like ‘wow that girl is super cute wait… She looks familiar. wait… Wait… Wait… WAIT… Oh my god.’) And I like freaked and turned around super fast. And my sister is just like… “o . o wat?” Then Kayla spots me (SHE WAS WITH HER EX BTW. TODAY IS HER EX’S BIRTHDAY. -____-) anyways. She spots me and shes just like.. waaaaah! And runs at me (like her friends and her ex is talking to her and and she just leaves them and runs away towards me.) And she like tackles me and she was like ultra mega super monster bear hugging me and she was like holding me so tight and I’m just like ( *swoon* /*w*/) omg we were hugging for so long. I just. Jdjlsksnshendljtnsnjsjsjwkakkslspsj. Then we were talking for a second and I introduced her to my sister and her gf and it was weird because she knew my sisters girlfriend from high school I guess. And Idk. Then I looked over at her group of friends and I was like maybe you should get back to your birthday party now… And she’s like ‘oh.. you should go tell any happy birthday. Just run up to her and say happy birthday’ I was like. Uh… No… She hates me… (Oh I forgot I havent really been posting a lot of Kayla stuff lately because work is cock blocking me and they wrote me up for taking to Kayla too much and they called her boss and anyways once a couple weeks ago on Friday the 13th I left Kayla this dumb cheesy note and a bunch of candy and I guess she told (her ex) about it and her ex was like mad or something. idk Kayla said she was kind of mad. So I guess she hates me. Even though we’ve never met.) And yeah. Omg how did I make this so long about Kayla when I only talked to her for like 5 minutes. Mzoshrirfjpdod. Imissher. But anyways. So then I saw Kaitlind who’s this other girl I sort of talked to/liked a while back. Like around my birthdayish. And this time I successfully ran away. Then I saw dozens of other random people. And then a couple of my other friends. And yeah. It was a good night. I didn’t realize how much I missed my sister. I haven’t hung out with her like that in… Years… Were going out to lunch I think on Thursday. I’m excited.
There’s actually a reason guys at my school don’t talk to me. We were all talking at lunch and this is what I was told:
1: I’m too ‘innocent’. Like they were all.. ‘you’re Jayce, you’re not suppose to do bad things.’ And I’m just like…? Why? And they’re all like ‘because you’re just little and you’re a baby and you can’t do bad things and you’re like my little sister and yeah..’
And I’m just like ‘….. -______-‘
2: apparently.. okay. This guy, I’ve known him since the 4th grade and there are only 3 people that go to my school that went to the same elementary school as me. So, yeah he’s one of them. Anyways, so were like friends or whatever. And I ended up losing my virginity to him, and he’s the only guy I’ve had sex with (we’ve only had sex 4 times). So, anyways we aren’t dating. We just like.. friends with benefits or something I guess.
So okay I guess he like ‘claimed me’.. Yeah. They told me that and I was just like… Wait, he what? Yeah I guess he somehow just let all the guys in my grade, and the class the just graduated know that ‘hey.. me and her are a thing.’ I’m just like.. what the fuck. No one could mention this to me like.. through out all my high school years… I mean yeah like people occasionally ask if were together and I’m like no.. But I never thought it was because of that.. -__-
I’m just going to tumble on my phone until my battery dies. Bringing your charger to school allows so much more time spent doing nothing important.