yey i got one. finally. (more now tho pls thank)

anyways. okay 
Dear Best Friend,
(and im going to do 4 of them k ok cos i cannot choose what is this, Sophie’s Choice that is so cruel)

Roxy,
You are really one of the only people who knows me so much, knows pretty much everything about me and still doesnt really even understand me half the time. I can be so weird around you and it doesnt even matter because you’re just as weird as me. You are my mean boyfriend but its okay because people have to be aggressive to get through my thick head most times. Days when we dont hang out it’s just kind of like ‘What? What the fuck is even happening? Is this a real thing? Am I dreaming? Today was not a real day. My life was so boring today.’ and that’s pri much the summary of it all. Even nights where all we do is drive aimlessly down random dark roads shouting out random directions until we get lost and end up like 2 hours away in some other city, those simple nights are probably my most favorite of them all.

Robert,
You already know you are my girl for life. I love you so much. It’s like we were born from the same cells and that’s why we butt heads sometimes. It’s like you’re the more sassy, outspoken who has musical talents beyond belief and I am the quiet, shy one who is tone deaf but doesn’t really give a fuck. Either way we are Spicy Momma and Big Momma for life. And both of us like to pretend like we are strong, independent black women who don’t need no man but then we both give our hearts out to anyone who we think will love us back, even though most of the times they just want us for our good looks and juicy bootys. But you know we gotta be strong and slice any bitch who tries to break us.

Alyssa,
I am officially labeling you ma best fran okay. Cause other than Roxy and Robert you are one of the only other people who puts up with my strange behaviors and has not reported me to the creep police yet. Anyways. I love you so much. You are kind of basically like my sub-conscious in human form and it kind of freaks me out sometimes how much we think in the same ways almost always. Slumber parties with you are so fun because we can talk about things and spill out all of our thoughts in a safe place where we are not judged and then end up playing battleshots or candyland or some kind of game and be drunken and merry. Basically what I am saying to you is, all time with you are fun times. 

Sahida,
okay so. I’m still labeling you as one of my best friends because why, because i am an idiot and i cannot let people go.
to be completely honest even though you will never see this, you are a bitch. most times, i would really just love to hit you, really hard. but i wont. youre throwing your life away and wasting your time and energy on people who dont give even the tiniest molocule of shit about you. while those who love you and would do anything for you are pushed away. okay im just going to stop because i would go on for hours and it wouldnt matter because you will never see this and you will never change.

you also still owe me $260 dont think i fucking forgot about it.